Friday, August 26, 2016


NOTE: As her marriage to Wolfgang Rebner, a German-Jewish concert pianist from a wealthy family is eroded by financial problems tied into the horrors of Nazism in Europe, Meta sacrifices in New York, until she becomes very ill, has surgery, and becomes skin and bones.  So she decides to leave her marriage, go back to her parents, who now live in Arizona.  But instead a telegram to William Faulker, leads to a train, and a hotel room in New Orleans, where he wanted her to stay.  He is, at this point, living back in his home town of Oxford, Mississippi.
page 242-243 from A LOVING GENTLEMAN - THE LOVE STORY OF WILLIAM FAULKNER and META CARPENTER by Meta Carpenter Wilde and Orin Borsten
"It was romantic extravagance (for him to suggest that she stay in New Orleans), like the gardenias pinned to my pillow, the poems, the outpourings of amorous hyperbole when he made love.  I gave no answer, knowing that he couldn't mean it,  he was a writer who was most inspired when he was in Oxford.  He was fanatically slavish to the books and short stories that clogged his imagination.  He was a farmer, with cotton and hay crops to bring in."

Wednesday, August 24, 2016


This images provided to wickicommons by Pearson Scott Foresman
an educational publisher.  Public Domain

William Faulkner gifted Meta Carpenter a puppy,
a cocker spaniel they name Chloe,
early in their relationship. 
She had the dog for many years.

Sunday, August 21, 2016


DAILY MAIL ; JUNE 2016 AUCTION OF WILLIAM FAULKNER HEIRLOOMS EXPECTED TO NET $2 MILLION FOR FAMILY  go to article for full report and images of William Faulkner


It's a literary treasure trove, said Justin Caldwell, a specialist in books and manuscripts at Sotheby's, who said Faulkner's original writings are a rarity in the literary marketplace

William Faulkner's Legion d'Honneur medal presented by France to Faulkner in 1951 and his Nobel handwritten acceptance speech draft are all to be included.


This image is from Google Images and is listed as in Public Domain in Canada


Friday, August 19, 2016


"I take a good look at myself, realistically, and know my self worth."

Self worth isn't exactly confidence or self esteem.  It is derived at by taking stock and being realistic so that you don't demand or expect things that are truly out of your reach at this time in your life, but also so that you don't expect too little. 

I reviewed the book BEING A WOMAN by Dr. Toni Grant a while ago.  A copy is on my personal bookshelf.  In this book Dr. Grant suggests a woman ask herself "Who have I attracted so far?"

Another means for determining self worth is to research what your education, experience, talent, job skills, and ambition go for on the average in your employment market.  (For this there is lots of help these days both in books and on the Internet.)  You should aim to never be underpaid but you might also find out that it would take a significant move to be paid the going rate for your work.

In Meta Carpenter Wilde's book that was the basis for much of this month's posts, there is a lot of taking stock, of asking herself questions about what she wants out of life as she ages, as she finds her talent and skills and employment going from high to low to high again, and, after marrying Mr. Wrong, if she should stay married. She asks herself what she gets out of her relationship with William Faulkner as the relationship goes on as well.

Tuesday, August 16, 2016


The Love Story of William Faulkner and Meta Carpenter
by Meta Carpenter Wilde and Orin Borsten

"I could no longer cope with the situation.  I could not handle subterfuge, play games, deceive, live in the Back Street, as we called it then, of a married man's life."  (page 187) 

NOTES: She was in her mid twenties.  She thought about ten years hence she would be in her mid thirties and it would be difficult if not impossible to bear healthy children.  Instead, she said nothing to bill and withdraw gradually "gently from the coil of our love" and she did that by working nights for Howard Hawks.  She thought that Wolfgang Rebner was lovelorn and rich, and she accepted his proposal.  When she told Bill she had, he asked  her "give us more time. wait it out."  She felt she couldn't want him to loose Jill, his daughter, on her account.  He asked her out for drinks and then asked her to go to her place, which she refused.  Two days before her wedding, Bill showed up haggard, "vivid gashes caked with blood disfiguring his face," where his wife, Estelle, had assaulted him.  He said he was driving when she did this, and they could have been killed in an accident.

Meta did marry Rebner - twice - but hers was a heart divided and William Faulkner remained in it, and would have liked her back as a Mistress living nearer him in the American South.

Monday, August 8, 2016


The Love Story of William Faulkner and Meta Carpenter
by Meta Carpenter Wilde and Orin Borsten

NOTES:  Meta Carpenter told Bill Faulkner that their relationship had put her in a bubble, because she met him as a lover in hotel rooms that he stayed in when he's working in Hollywood.  Socially they are isolated.  Only a few people have been confided in.  He decides that she should meet first, his beloved daughter Jill, a young girl of about three, and then his wife Estelle, who he has brought to Southern California from Mississippi.  He's rented his family a house in Pacific Palisades.  Meta soon loves Jill but didn't like the idea of meeting Estelle, but finally she's persuaded to show up for dinner with his agent as a date.

page 159

"The real predicament I faced was serous enough without investing Estelle, whose photograph I had never seen, who was all mist and vapor in my mind, formless spectral, with power to smile.  Would I now, with all the moral detritus that had been stuffed into my head as a girl, all those precepts and dictates rattling around in my skill, be able to continue my relationship with Bill? Would my love for him be the same.... without shadow and shame, sweetly abandoned?

page 175

"The full force and import of the evening's shameful dissemblance would not hit me for years to come but it left me at the time.  With an enemy (Estelle) shrunken in sixe, foreshortened, no longer the commanding baleful woman whom I had constructed from the clay of imagination, my hatred had been taken from me without my consent.  But friend I would not be to her."

Soon after, Bill asked Estelle for a divorce and said he would want custody of Jill.

page 183-185


Estelle became  "a wraith of iron transformed by outrage into a screaming, frenzied woman... threatened to ruin him... " She wanted everything to "pauperize" him if it came to divorce.  And so Bill retreated.  He said he could not divorce even if he earned twice as much and at least not until Jill reached the age of 12 or so, old enough to testify in court that she wanted to live with him.  But he would not promise to quit Meta.  "I love her and will see her," he said.

Apparently this encounter resulted in a "truce" between Bill and his wife, and Meta felt that there was nothing Estelle could do about her (love).  But...

page 187

Meta found herself filled with dread and trembling "like a Victorian lady"